How are you feeling today?

i didnt see it yesterday so no apologise needed not that there would ever be any need for an apologise.

i keep trying to eat regularly but i dunno i guess my ED is coming back thinking about it.urgh i cba with it. i just keep eating sugary crap
sorry
x

Hello Patch,

If you are feeling like snacking could you possibly make yourself up snacks in the morning so that when you want to snack you have something that will boost your energy and mood rather than make you feel tired and low?

Edsne

i had porridge for lunch. but thats all i've managed today. i have a really nice dinner planned but i dont know if i cant manage it. i really want it and i bought everything i need at the shop but i just dont know. urgh wish i wasnt alone.
im rarely seeing the mornings at the moment i generally dont get out of bed untill 12 maybe 11 at a push. its pathetic i know im sorry. im meant to be fine...everyone thinks im fine.
x

Have you spoken to your doctor Patch?

Edsne

no
dont want to bother her
x
plus im kinda scared to admit its all going tits up again

Hello Patch,

You wouldn't be bothering her, it's her job.

I think Patch the best way to stop it from becoming that way is to get some help and support now before it gets out of hand. Could you think about ringing the doctors for an appointment? Does that feel do able?

Sam x

i wish i could but im going back home on the 19th then hopfully not back down here till the 12th of january so is there really any point just for this week and a half when we all know it takes months to see anyone in the nhs who might vaguely help?
x

It might not take a long time to get seen by the right people Patch and the sooner you get the ball rolling then the sooner you will have the help and support you need.

Edsne

maybe i will try next week almost spoke to the college nurse today but chickened out sorry
X

Remember there is nothing to worry about and they can only help if you ask.

Good luck Patch.

Edsne

sorry i aint been around things been bad, had 2 go 2 hosp 4 s/h & the cais team r involved with me at the moment, tried 2 end it all, i have sum new sleeping meds so hope 2 feel better wen i catch up on sleep, havent been 2 shop or art 4 a while may try 2 go in 4 a bit on monday, hope u r all ok, lol xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello julie,

I'm very, very sorry to hear that.

Are you getting lots of help and support? It sounds like you really need it at the moment.

It might do you good to go on Monday. Just remember not to push yourself too hard.

Edsne

hi
yes getting support the cais team r in contact daily & i can ring 24 hrs. My folks have been great too not sure what 2 do about the shop 2morow, feel 2 fat & useless 2 c anyone, hope u r ok, lol xxxxxxxxxxx

Hello Julie,

It's great you have that support in place.

I'm sorry you are feeling that way. Maybe you could go for half an hour or a short amount of time and build up slowly? Or maybe have someone with you for support?

Try and do something nice for yourself tonight.

Edsne

feeling numb, spaced out and lonely today.
x

Hello Patch,

I'm sorry to hear you have had a tough day.

Try and be extra kind to yourself tonight and do something nice for yourself if you can.

Is there something fun you could plan for tomorrow with some of your uni friends?

Edsne

i had a really rough night last night, wasn't good, didn't sleep too well either. i've got half a ton of work due in for tomorrow so i've got to stay here and do that.
think i'm starting to get some sort of throat infection of something as well.
i haven't spoken to anyone from uni in ages like literally since i left there on thursday afternoon, i've tried to they just don't respond.
x

Hello Patch,

I'm sorry to hear that you had a bad night and I hope tonight is better for you.

If you can't make plans with uni friends maybe you could plan something nice for yourself for after completing your work today. Maybe rent a film or watch your favorite film, have a bubble bath. Anything that makes you feel good.

Did you say it was the 19th you go home on Patch? Are you looking forward to seeing your friends back home? Do you have anything nice planned?

Edsne

hiya today im feeling better than this morning. i've done alot of my work only got 247 words to go on another piece then i've just to write a covering letter for a job application and then fill in an application form then i am done for the term :D
i've just had a shower as a break then will crack on and get this last bit done then maybe watch some tv as a reward :)
yer im getting the train home at friday lunch time. one of my old friends is having a get together that night so will probably pop over to see everyone there, then im home alone till tuesday so will hopefully get mates over to mine or just get out and about cos i will have the car which will be nice :) so yer i am looking forward to it. not looking forward to going out to france and watching everyone ski/snowboard but hey ho at least it will only be for a few days and i will probably spend the days shopping and getting drunk lol
that shower has just really lifted my spirits i think the water must have been magic he he
hope your ok
xxx

Hello Patch,

It's good to hear your feeling much better.

Enjoy your tv watching.

Edsne

Hiya
well i just got in from college
im done for the term
my work is all handed in
i can now relax and just pack for going home :)
im so happy
but have that horrible feeling that i've forgotten something
hope your ok xx

Hello Patch,

Try not to worry.

It's usually when you think you've remembered everything that you have actually forgotten something.

I bet you are relieved that everything is done and you can relax. :)

If you don't post before you go Patch have a safe journey home. :)

Edsne

hi am feeling tired & nervous the cais team r reviewing me 2morow am on new anti-psycotics & night meds but still not sleeping well, i've got no appetite at all 2 so they r banging on about that. Hope u r ok, lol xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello Julie,

I'm sorry to hear that.

Try not to worry and be kind to yourself tonight.

I hope you manage to get some sleep.

Let us know how it goes.

Edsne

hiya
well home is ok just boring
im full of cold and a stupid cold
my mates aren't contacting me despite me attempting numerous times to talk to them so just mooching about the house
dreading going to france it looks like its the best conditions for skiing/boarding that we've gad in a few years and i dont get to use it. its s***.
hope your well xx